I had a call from Mom yesterday morning around 9.45 a.m and panicked.
She doesn’t usually call me this early. Actually – she doesn’t really call me when I’m at work unless something’s up. We usually text each other
So associating something less than normal with that early call was somewhat normal?
I picked up the call, waiting to see what was up and more importantly what was going on, on the other side when I heard mom say ‘okay hold on’ and then comes a tiny voice sobbing ‘mommy, I want go you mommyyy, momyyyyyy, mommyy come home’
And this is not the first time she has called crying for me to go home and be with her.
I once had a call from mom again but this time my mom didn’t actually say hold on, I heard Sairah’s voice crying and asking me to come home. “Mommy I want youuu”
And like an idiot, I asked her how she managed to dial my number when I should have known better, heh. It was rather hilarious though, trying to figure out how my close to 3 year old made a phone call to me.
On days like this, I re-affirm the idea that being a working mom isn’t easy at all. My heart sinks every time she longs for me to be with her.
Some days I wish I had that luxury to be able to not work.
Some days I resent the husband for not making enough so I don’t have to drag my fat ass all way to KL for a crap salary. And having to put up with f*ck-tards on the road. When I could be at home, waking up late with my toddler and doing fun stuff.
And on certain days (Wed, Sat & Sun), I have even bigger resentments with Magnum when I don’t see my numbers on Jackpot 1 and 2. Coz I swear the day I hit it I will QUIT and be a rich SAHM who can actually afford to buy what I want instead of waiting for an allowance from the husband. Which is also one of my biggest fear should I quit my job.
But of course, on her naughty days I’ll tell you how glad I am to have a safe place to hide out aka the office and not put up with tantrums and a screaming difficult toddler. As I was telling a cousin, the little breaks I have during lunch time to the malls on some occasion during weekdays is always a calm one – don’t have to put up with a toddler AND husband who doesn’t want to window shop or walk around. That’s my ME time.
Hmpf. Bloody life and it’s contradictions.
Now I can’t even decide if I rather be a working mom or SAHM.
Just when you think Monday Blues are for those working, you are SO wrong because kids loath Mondays too. Esp when they’ve had glorious moments sleeping in and spending most of their time with their parents. So sometimes on Monday, it’s funny how she’ll sleep through me blowing drying my hair with my hurricane of a hair dryer (or so it’s been called by many!) but just as I’m about to step out of the door, she wakes up crying and will ask where am I going.
Life of a working mom sucks big time sometimes.
Until pay day that is. Peanuts are still peanuts after all.
See the contradictions again?! Blasphemy.
But still, some days I don’t mind taking a break from the work force, maybe just for a little while? Hmmm
Anyway here’s sharing photos of my baby who will soon be 2 years and 9 months!
Went for a trial music lesson someplace closer to home and so far we like the method used. Yet to sign up coz we’re waiting for her dad to be done with his exams first.
Teacher said to close her eyes to ‘feel’ and hear the notes better in her ears. I was quite surprised when she could actually recognize her notes spot on. Then again, I shouldn’t be since she loves her music THIS much.
Hanging out with her Aunt and Uncles @ Chilis.
When I first got this outfit for her from a friend, the pants were actually long on her! Fast forward a few months, it’s actually more like a 3/4 pants on her now. Cliche as it sounds, they DO grow fast. And I say it’s time to go shopping but of course
Being a drama queen by pretending to be tired.
I”ve started her onto writing numbers and alphabets – while concentration is somewhat like her dad’s, heh, we are seeing some progress. So yay.
Went for one milk casting recently and they wanted her to re-enact a scene. After she was done, she actually cried and wanted to pose and ‘play’ some more! It was hilarious, even the guys who did her casting were laughing. But I take comfort in knowing how much she loves posing for the camera – hope it comes handy in her life one day *cough* supermodel *cough* Ok I kid.
Ahoyyyy matey! I spot a bear in need of rescuing!
Oh and without a doubt, there will come a day when Sairah might say “Mom, just go away Mom” and perhaps not even want my company but for now, I shall enjoy these precious moments before life throws me another contradiction 10 years down the road in those tweeny moments!