Quite a decent year this 2009. Got a job offer, turned it down, went for more interviews but luck ran out, happy that husband sold the apartment, got a new Baby (Mylo), visited some countries on my list, got to know 1/3 of me roots, got a LV bag from the husband, family trip, parties and happy times with my cousins and family, donated $ and food to an orphanage and dog shelters and many more. Everything is so transparent on this blog
At the same time, MJ died!!!! I also felt shitty about some things in particular goals I wanted to achieve but don’t think I have, at all. Sometimes I get the feeling that everyone else is more successful than me. Not that I’m jealous but I wish to be there too. Maybe its a case of the grass is always greener on the other side? Well guess that’s it. Also am NOT happy over something that happened a month ago because it wasn’t my fault, at all. And no it has nothing to do with my husband. In any case, I think we’ve grown even closer this year and my love for him grows even when he annoys the crap out of me sometimes
My only hope for the year is to do away with all the unnecessary. The unnecessary materials, drama, general clutters in life, baggage – the unnecessary. I want to keep life at the minimum and focus on the little things that would enrich me and make me happy.
And I’d like to NOT give a shit about what others think or say about me, because deep down I know I am a good person so I can’t care less what others think. They can take their damn drama elsewhere. I just hate it and tend to get all sad when people have things to say about me when they dont know jack shit or the real deal. But never mind, karma, she’s lurking.
Ms Shopaholic-no-more: Absolutely my number 1 vice – online shopping! Not only do I end up buying unnecessary items and loose them in the pile of growing clothes, I could easily save a shit load amount of $ if I can kick this habit. And go on more holidays! How much clothes does one need anyway right? Unnecessary!
Material-less: I am going to ‘try’ to banish all desires of owning nice things, like clothes, bags, shoes etc. You know that feeling of just having to have it and going all out to get it? Well…….need to control that.
Because the more you think about it, what can another bag do that my other bags can’t? Get a few glances from others who also desire a nice bag? Perhaps. Make me happier, perhaps. But would that be sustainable? No. Would the façade end? Most definitely because they will come up with an even better looking bag and you’ll end up lusting after that – it is a vicious cycle this retail industry and the human want list.
It’s always one want after another. One wish list to be striked off ,only for you to add more to the list. A never ending cycle. To which extent will one be totally satisfied with what they have? Most likely never, because the human greed is such. Sigh. (But I digress coz sometimes these want list can motivate us to work harder in life? Life, why are you so ironic!)
But for now I am talking about the little material things. If you step back and think about it, would these things make life better? Would my quality of life per say be much enriched by having all these fancy extras?
NO. Because I’ve seen and personally know those who have it all yet as cliche as it sounds, (because it’s true!) – they are lacking that love and happiness.
Which brings me to what i’ve always known about life and the truth of life whether you want to acknowledge it or not.
Life is always a trade off.
You may have richness, but not necessary happines, health or heck a gorgeous face, you may have a huge house but not necessarily a home, you might have a rich husband and family, but not necessary one that is always by your side , you may have all the branded goods in the world, but not necessary people that love you beyond all those brands.
Wouldn’t it be awesome if we can have it all? YES IT WOULD but no, for drama and putting the economics point to good use, God has made it a trade off. I wouldn’t trade anything at all for richness if i wasn’t going to be loved by anyone, that much I know.
Phew okay I am so the philospical and shit wise today. Shall I start a cult? Somebody shoot me if I fail to practice my preachy resos come 2010.
Weighty Issues: I know this might seem so insignificant, but it is true that I have gained so much ever since getting married. I was once a slim 5’7” girl who was only 45kgs! I’m still 5′7″ though which I’m so thankful for coz if i was like dwarf sized and the weight I am, i’d be mistaken for humpty dumpty. Over 2 years of marriage, I’ve seen my weight increase significantly to the point that people I know have commented on it! Of course some swear I look better while some blatantly tell me off. Then I went on some stupid slimming juice, which worked for a short while until it started breaking me out badly. Which was a major FML moment coz I’ve been battling acne for the longest time. Thankfully it’s all okay now so yea, more exercising and eating healthily is definitely on the cards. I TOLD YOU IT SUCKS TO BE ME.
Me @ 45kgs and obviously much younger.
And now I have a arse bigger than Beyonce. I should be in a rap video!
Hopefully the big booty craze stays in 2010 Booty, booty, booty, booty, rockin’ everywhere……
Pay it Forward: “At the end of our lives, we will not be judged by how many diplomas we have received, how much money we have made or how many great things we have done. We will be judged by ‘I was hungry and you gave me to eat. I was naked and you clothed me. I was homeless and you took me in.”
Mother Theresa once said those words. I won’t be going all MT, bringing in homeless people but you get the idea – do some charity to make the world a slightly better place. Because it’s quite the bitch as it is already. But it is true that GOD does not judge how much $ you make, nor would he judge what luxuries you’ve owned. When you die, you’re stripped off all materials and the only thing you bring to his foot steps is your soul. He will then judge what good you’ve done – whether you’ve lead an honest life or have been a kind soul, whether you’ve enriched this soul that he loaned your body. Then again, not only GOD would want to know that, even those around you after your passing will remember you for what you’ve done, and not what you’ve had.
So basically, in a nut shell – like what i’ve blabbed earlier – do away with the unnecessary and enrich yourself. Simple concept, no? Yet rocket science hard to implement sometimes.
Some of the things I plan to do is maybe take up a new language and if everything else permits, learn to play a new instrument. Let see how this goes.
Crap this is getting long. So with a clear conscience, good heart and soul, here’s wishing you all nothing but tranquillity, health and lots of luck for the coming 2010
May you start the new year afresh with nothing but good hopes and dreams to achieve.
Peace out 2009,
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