Flashback 1997-1998
30 Nov
Last week on Facebook, someone tagged a bloody awful school picture of me which was taken bloody 11 years ago. In lightning speed, I quickly removed the tag.
WHY?
Because it reminds me of
1)How ugly and fat I was
2)How bad my skin was (although not much has changed since then)
3)How hideous and short my hair was
4)How I looked so different,like a boy
5)How some people used to remind me how unattractive I was
In a nut shell, how much I hated my hideous self then. Not even my husband knows how I looked like back in school. And he shall never find that out till the day I die!
Thinking back, I enjoyed secondary school at 13-15, because girls this young (back then of course) didn’t really care how you look like nor did they give attention to the nitty gritty. So yes I easily sailed through it. Plus it helped that yours truly was the assistant class captain which made her somewhat popular 
Now Form 4-5 was a blur but I remember the girls being very much separated into cliques. Had at least 4 cliques or so in our class and then there were the occasional loners (not me ok!).
My clique was a small one, – not the popular ones I assure you. Infact someone thought it was okay to label us the gangsters of the class, no idea why. It’s kind of an irony when I think about it especially when I was the Class captain. And a damn nice one at that. Ah well.
Anyway looking back as a 17 year old, I honestly thought the popular cliques were going to be ‘all that’ in later life considering how these girls had everything going for them.
Me? Not only did I have certain issues (see points 1-5 again), the only boy (who I had a huge crush on), who asked me out was only interested in exchanging tips for SPM. I felt so stupid to even think he was remotely interested in me. Stupid Stupid.
Now that I have most of my classmates on FB, it’s funny how 11 years have changed us so much.
The ones that were popular with the boys are now, single or with complicated love lives. The ones that you didn’t think would embrace marriage and motherhood are well, married with cute kids. The ones that everyone assumed would have high flying careers are just another white collar worker. The ones that were quiet are seeing the world and living life. The ones that were bitchy are well, still bitches, lol. That’s something you really can’t change I suppose.
Life oh life, you just never know where it brings you to or set forth upon you.
As for me, from someone who had a lot of issues with one’s self and may not have the best of past, I think I’ve evolved pretty alright.
I may not be the most successful, the richest or the most perfect, but I’m happy.
I’m not sure what others thought I’d become of but fast forward 11 long excruciating years;
Not only have I evolved physically, emotionally and mentally, I’m married to a obedient handsome husband (who knew!) with a BIG BIG and I mean BIG heart 
, I have a steady job/career, I get to enjoy the occasional travelling and I’m surrounded by people who love me for who I am – even when the makeup comes off, heh.
As an ugly 17 year old, don’t think I would have ever saw this one coming.
So maybe, just maybe, I should start embracing that picture.
Or not.
Life oh life, you gots to embrace it and have a little faith in it folks.
Shan you have the most beautifuk heart and soul…. i think you turned out perfect and i feel lucky to count you as one of my besties.
Awww thanks so much. Happy to have you as my bestie *hugs*. And come on I demand an update on your blog. You’re already married!
we’re so lucky facebook has an untag option! look at the picture and give yourself a pat on the back la woman, you’ve come a long way since
LOL you’re right, thank god for the untag option. FB would be a horror without it. Guess I should really embrace the picture eh. Thanks!
i know EXACTLY how u feel.. i was an ugly duckling in school! no guys would even want to get to know me.. let alone date me =.=
anyways, i don’t care anymore to all the shits from those ‘classmates’ had given me.. for now i’ve a happily married, not working, just shop and travel life
and oh, i have THE BEST looking hubby among my ex-schoolmates.. at least, i’d like to think so :P~ hahaha…
fantastic blog entry woman…i can’t agree more with your point of view. The ugly ducklings are now d most hottest in d market
lol…but life does have it’s up’s n downs…but God sure is fair in distributing it troughout one’s life. Have an awesome time in Makati. Don’t forget my food tips. Enjoy those brownies…cheers!